A projection of the torment of a sorry, self-destructive state of mind.
lyrics
I must have missed my chance to feel welcome,
In any case I've found my shelter for the night,
Show me the time that I might leave early,
Why should I wait for morning to show mercy with the light?
Why should I wait for anything at all?
Throw me a bone that I will see it buried,
Not just today but all the days that I remain,
I jump the wall and what puts me back together,
Is making promise after promise I will never jump again,
And making certain I am grounded after all,
I should have known, I should have known better,
Now looking back, I should have done so much better,
Not that it helps, I should've known in an instant,
All the King's hopes and all the King's memories,
Lost in the laundry run but never gone for good,
I've tried to cope, forgetting so contently,
Somehow I treat my love like I said I never would,
Sometimes I wonder why I even love at all,
I should've known, I should've known better,
Now looking back, I should've done so much better,
Not that it helps, I should've known in an instant,
Not that it helps, I should've known in an instant.
credits
from Midas Rise,
released December 5, 2015
Music & Lyrics: Joseph Ruddleston
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